My testimony of Jesus Christ

 I know that many people doesn't believe in God, nor in Jesus Christ the God's lamb. You might not believe in what I'm going to write about, but I'm not writing to convince you but to share my testimony of the Lord. It is up to you to choose whether to believe in it or not.

Since I was little, I was a rebellious child. I enjoyed teasing my classmates, I even laughed along with my classmates at my best friend, I lied, stole things, all and all hideous stuffs that a bad kid would do. When I grew up to be a teenager, I was no better than when I was a kid. My temper got shorter and shorter as I spend my terrible years of highschool. I've been through a lot of horrible stuffs that I prefer not to talk about.

But somehow I did have hope in God, I always knew that someone who is very powerful controlling everything we do and anything that happens to us. I started to know about Jesus Christ when I came to Russia. I remember once, I watched a movie that was portraying the Passion of Christ. At that time I never knew who that person was and what he did that people killed him for, I only cried. Eventually I started to know about Jesus Christ thanks to my mum. And I remember she used to have a bible(only recently I knew it WAS a bible), she told me that whenever she tried to read it she felt sleepy and also told me that only people with pure heart can read it without feeling sleepy. Since I love to show off, I tried reading the bible (only to skip more than 2/3 of it). But because of that I learned that Jesus Christ was God.

Many times when I called upon him, I was saved. Once I was little I was lost in the huge market that currently is closed down by Russian government. It was so huge that it would take you a 1 week to see the whole market. It was a miracle that I found the way back to my mum. I was 6 or 7 years old I think, that time my mum and I got out of the bus. I waited for her to pay for the tickets, and suddenly I saw a very cute bag with a cat key chain on it. Like a child I followed that bag unconsciously, and when I looked away I didn't know where I was. I was terrified but was too scared to cry out for my mum....so I just kept on walking and walking. I was too scared and shy to ask people around for direction...so the more I walked the further I was lost.....and I was hopeless, walking and crying....And so I remembered Jesus Christ, and I cried in my mind "Jesus Christ, I want to go home!" on and on I went on in my head. Then after like 30 minutes I looked and found my mum's shop. I was SHOCKED! And relieved....I run there and I found nobody cause obviously my parents were looking for me. That was one of all the miracles Lord did for me.

But that is not the testimony I want to share with you. To go on, when I was a teenager I always rebuked my parents words, I was a complete pessimistic about life, no hope, no reason to live, and just a complete EMO girl. I believe any of us that has been through that stage or is going through that stage would understand what I mean. Eventually, I started to cosplay cause I really loved the attention I get when cosplaying. But my parents were completely against it. So one day, I was staying up late around 4AM I think. My dad got out of the bed and saw me still up. He shouted at me and started lecturing me which then woke my mum up....And she did the exact same thing. I chose to ignore their words and went on doing my stuff. And at that moment my mum said that if I ever cosplay again she's gonna kick me out of the house. And my nerves just hit the line....whenever the anger inside me gets too much for me to handle I crack...literally CRACK.... I start to breath insanely like I was about to die....then I just dropped dead on the ground(physically).... I was consumed with despair that my mind refuse to move my body....
So at that time, I felt hopeless. Cosplay was one of the only reason I wanted to live, cause I had friends, I had goals I wanted to achieve, if even that slightest thing I was not allowed to do then what is there a reason for me to live? I was not allowed to study what I wanted, thanks to my mum I stopped drawing when I had such potential. So I just lied there hopelessly in despair. Then I said in my mind "Oh, Father! Please show yourself to me so I would have a reason to live!". Tears were running down my cheek and I kept saying it inside my mind. And seconds later I SAW HIM!!! I literally SAW HIM!!!! I didn't saw him like I would see somebody standing in front of me. I just saw his figures' outline. I thought I was imagining things or it's just a mirage. I closed my eyes tightly and opened it again, and yet he was still there. I didn't see him clearly but I KNEW it was him. I was somewhat HAPPY, I didn't know why but I felt so peaceful and safe. I wish the image wouldn't disappear and I tried to hold my eyes open as long as I could. And he didn't disappear when I thought he would. The image stayed there till I had fallen asleep. The next morning I never thought specially of that experience and just thought of it as a dream, not until I saw the Shroud of Turin. (click on the link to see the photo)www.world-mysteries.com/jesus_…
I was SHOCKED!!!!! I was like "Wha...what...what...is going on? I...I saw him....I saw him!". To tell you the truth, I was scared....I just couldn't believe it. And once I saw online a video of a guy who also witness something similar to me but in rather vivid vision. And he TOO saw Lord's face and it looked just like the one in the Shroud of Turin! So at that moment I knew that, this was no coincidence or my only plot of imagination. I believe it with all my heart that Lord DID appear to me, he DOES care for me if not he wouldn't appear and give me the reason and hope to live. HE IS THE TRUE MESSIAH!!!!

Like I wrote earlier, it is my testament and I'm NOT TRYING to CONVINCE you to believe in it. You choose to believe it or not. I don't have so much freetime to just sit around and make up this FREAKEN LONG journal entry OK? There are many other people who have witness or saw the vision of Jesus. If you want more, you can check out this spiritlessons.com/documents/bi… . It will tell you about what is REALLY going on IN HELLl! And again, it is all your choice to either walk the path with the God who loves you or keep on walking the path of a lost lamb! May the Holy Spirit touch your heart and your soul. Amen!

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Surat Cinta Semalam

 

Bagaimana rasanya ketika kamu mendapatkan surat cinta? Bahagia? Ya tentu saja. Itu yang aku rasakan tadi malam. Saat kepalaku tak dapat berhenti berputar dan berpikir tentang banyak hal. Ketika ada banyak kegelisahan dan kekuatiran karena merasa tidak maksimal melakukan ini dan itu.

Surat cinta ini menguatkanku. Surat cinta ini menenangkanku. :)

Selamat malam Dian, Ini AKU yang mengasihimu.

Hari ini AKU melihat, kamu sepertinya sedang murung. Apa yang terjadi? Kamu pasti mau berkata, tentu kau tau apa yang terjadi kan?

Ya, kamu betul. AKU mengetahui semua yang terjadi. AKU juga tau , kamu sedang merasa bahwa kamu tidak bisa menjadi orang yang hebat dan bahwa kamu merasa kehadiranmu tidak begitu diharapkan oleh orang orang di sekitarmu.

Tapi Inilah yang hendak AKU sampaikan padamu malam ini. Dian, apakah kamu tau arti namamu? Ya kamu betul arti namamu adalah cahaya atau lebih spesifik adalah lentera. Kamu tentu tau tugas lentera itu apa?

 

Dia bertugas untuk memberi penerangan saat gelap. Lentera/Dian dipakai orang di desa untuk menerangi jalan ketika malam, menuntun mereka ketika berjalan supaya tidak jatuh. Cahaya lentera tidak terlalu terang, tapi CUKUP untuk membuat hangat ruangan saat malam, CUKUP menjadi penerang saat mencari jalan. CUKUP untuk menghilangkan sesak karena gelap.

 

Jadi tentu kamu tau apa tugasmu saat ini kan? Lalu kenapa kamu merasa tak berarti ketika terangmu tak seperti matahari? Toh, AKU bukan menciptakanmu untuk menjadi matahari. Kenapa kamu mesti merasa tak dilihat? Toh, AKU menciptakanmu untuk berdampak dan bukan menjadi bintang yang menjadi sorotan orang saat malam.

 

Dear Dian, Berhentilah bersedih. Kamu tak harus jadi matahari untuk menyenangkan hati-Ku. Kamu tak harus jadi bintang untuk mengindahkan malam-Ku.

 

Kamu harus tahu,bahwa AKU berkenan kepadamu dan AKU sangat mengasihimu dan kamu harus tau bahwa meskipun dunia tidak melihatmu,AKU ini selalu tertarik dengan hidupmu. Bukan hanya tentang pelayananmu. AKU tertarik dengan seluruh hidupmu. Kamu harus tau,bahwa meskipun bagi dunia engkau tidak banyak berarti tapi bagiKu engkau sangat BERHARGA dan AKU mengasihimu.

Bangkitlah dan lakukan tugasmu. Tidak ada pelayanan yang terlalu kecil atau terlalu besar di mataKU. Selama kamu melakukannya untuk AKU, pelayananmu sungguh menyenangkan AKU. 

 

Jadilah Dian, tetap jadilah Dian yang menyala. Supaya mereka yang sesak dilegakan,mereka yg tak tau arah diberikan jalan,mereka yang dingin dihangatkan.

 

Tak masalah meski perlahan, AKU Tuhan yang senang melihatmu berproses. Tetap nyalakan sumbumu dengan semangat, tetap isi minyakmu dengan firmanKu. Tetaplah memandangKu,hai anak yang kukasihi.

Yohanes 14:27 Damai sejahtera Kutinggalkan bagimu. Damai sejahtera-Ku Kuberikan kepadamu, dan apa yang Kuberikan tidak seperti yang diberikan oleh dunia kepadamu. Janganlah gelisah dan gentar hatimu.

Jika ada yang bertanya apa yang aku rasakan. Aku merasa sangat dicintai olehNya. Ya.. sangat. Hingga aku tak tau lagi apa yang bisa aku tuliskan di sini. Aku hanya merasa sangat sangat dicintai. :)

Karena Tuhan tidak melihat apa yang ada di depan mata. Seperti bagaimana Dia mau melihat kedalaman hatiku. Seperti itu juga Dia melihat kamu. Tak perlu merasa tidak berarti, tak perlu lagi merasa tidak layak karena Dia sungguh tau kapasitasmu, Dia sangat senang ketika kita mau terus berusaha melakukan yang terbaik. Tak perlu berusaha menjadi orang lain, jadilah dirimu yang semakin baik tiap hari.

Setiap orang, aku, kamu, mereka. Tuhan ciptakan dengan masing-masing talenta. masing masing tujuan, masing masing tugas. Lakukanlah tugas yang Dia berikan padamu dengan setia. Tak Perlu melihat bagaimana orang melihatmu. Tidak ada tugas yang terlalu kecil atau terlalu besar buat Tuhan, selama kita melakukan untuk Dia. Dia akan tersenyum. 

 

Saya minta maaf sebelumnya jika ada yang merasa terganggu dengan postingan ini. Saya hanya sedang merasa sangat terberkati dan ingin berbagi apa yang saya dapat semalam.

Tidak ada motivasi apapun. Hanya ingin memberitahu semua orang bahwa Tuhan mencintai kita, bagaimanapun keadaan kita saat ini. 

 

Tuhan memberkati, 

 

Dian Wulansari